Deuces

So obviously, the 30 day challenge was an epic FAIL.

I'm saying my schedule has been more screwed than a hooker and I have not had the where with all to do a daily anything except shower.

And besides, the JSM stories are way more interesting to you than what I wore today--

That said, here it is...my Jerry Springer I'm a complete douche bag moment...

So I hadn't really said anything, but I met someone a few months back who had some definite potential.

Yeah now not so much.

Hell, now not at all.

Everything was fine and dandy and cool and roses and peaches. But it's like [wait wait we need an alias...um... "BB"] BB kept changing the rules and expecting me to know how to play. One minute wants to be around me constantly--the next bitchin about "needing space." I'ma need you to sit your bi-polar ass down somewhere. You want me when you want me and that's it--my suggestion is, don't want me AT ALL. I'm at the point where even though I like you--truly I do, and I'll still jump in and throw a punch on your behalf, yeah um...no. I'ma have to say deuces.



And this just goes to prove my point. I am thoroughly and utterly convinced that I just need to stay single for good. So over the whole dating thing. And I much as I would like for us to be cool honestly I'm so over BB too. Ugh!

I've been called ruthless and heartless more times than I can count in the last few days because my friends tell me they are amazed at how I can just instantly cut people at the jugular. It's like all my emotions just turn off...

That's not it.

I care. I do. Just not enough to become a complete masochist.

One day I promise you, you're going to realize you need me around and I'm gonna be long gone.

Episode 58- The Deal Breakers

Just when I thought I was safe from the drama...

So I went out on Friday and by happenstance ended up having a conversation with a very interesting person. Turns out we have a lot in common--including the fact that he hosts a open mic venue, so out initial conversation was all about that.

Later in the evening he says he's really into me. So--we exchange numbers.

Now...if you know anything about me, or if you've read my previous entries--you know a) I don't date much--for a reason and b) I'm nothing if not upfront and honest...keep those things in mind.

So yesterday he calls me and we talk for a little while and I say, I have a couple of things you should know upfront that might be potential deal breakers

1. My schedule is really, really hectic between school, work and performing--so if you're the type that needs to be around me 24/7 that's not going to work.
2. I have a daughter. She's priority #1 so if you don't like children it's a wrap

Ok...so here's what I get in response...

1.The schedule thing I understand because I am in school too.
2.As far as kids I definitely do not have a problem with that because I have a 10 year old, 6 year old and 8 month old twins (btw he's in his 30's--and there is more than one baby mama, but according to what I'm told no baby mama drama)


So then... we continue talking and then I find out...he spent 2 years in prison.

The short story is, he's ex military and did two tours in Iraq. When he came home he had some readjustment issues and it subsequently led to a fight which led to an assault charge. Ironically he said to me that he feels like it did him good because he has since been able to get things back on track...

I didn't quite know how to react. What do you say to something like that? Does it become a deal breaker? Hmm...

If you were me, what do you do?