Episode 54- Cut Ties?

I have a hypothetical question for anyone who cares to answer...

Let's say you have been friends with someone for about a year. You talk just about everyday--even if it's just a quick hello. Everything has been cool up to this point, no arguments no drama...

Then all of sudden friend doesn't speak to you for a week.

Now the first few days, you're not overly concerned. People get busy. It happens

By day 3 or 4, you're mildly worried that maybe something is wrong. You try reaching out to them and don't get a reply. At the same time, you see they're posting to their blogs and social networks like crazy (meaning: they had enough time to do all of that, but not enough to at least say "hey I'm breathing"....ok?)

On day 5 you notice that the blog and status messgaes have gotten rather cryptic... several of them make mention of "cutting certain people off" or "getting rid of dead weight"

Then all of a sudden after a full week no contact...the friend contacts you, as if nothing happened.

Now there are a couple of scenarios here: a) it's possible the friend just got super busy and the other stuff had nothing to do with you whatsoever b) it's possible you did/said something that you just don't realize

During the conversation you ask without being overly obvious what they've been up to...and the friend sidesteps the answer or is very vague.

How would you handle this? would you:

a) leave it alone and hope maybe they come around and tell you what's been up
b) flat out ask them (but keep in mind you might not like the answer)
c) say the hell with them and just sideline the friendship because you don't have time for the bs

or perhaps some combination thereof...

Episode 53- Superpowers

Man I don't know what's up with this...

Now I have this weird dream thing going on. Ok wait let me back up and explain. I'm not psychic or clairvoyant or anything like that, but I think maybe awhile back in this blog I explained I have two "super powers" (or as Malika called it a "gift/curse"...lol)

The first one is the ability to talk up events or people at random. Meaning, for instance, I could be having a conversation about something...and it could be far fetched, or about a person I haven't spoken with in awhile and the next thing you know, what I said or the person in question will suddenly materialize. I have never learned to "control" it, which is why I am careful sometimes about what I say because I never know if it may happen. And it DOES happen very often, but as I said it completely works at random. I can't just say I want to win the lottery ( I wish!!!) and win.

The second gift is the dream thing...there is no name for it, I just call it the dream thing. It kind of goes along with the talking stuff up. As long as I can remember I have been a massively hard sleeper...I actually slept through a major earthquake once. Anyway, the deal is 90% of the time I DO NOT remember my dreams. Then there is that other 10%...about 5% are "fish dreams"...

Fish dreams as the old folks tell it mean that someone around you is pregnant. When I have fish dreams I am always right. I don't know why but I am really sensitive to pregnancies. I'll dream about fish in some way shape or form--I never know who it is, but typically within a week or two either someone will call me or I will get the urge to call someone around me and bam...they're preggo. LOL. The best story was at a former job...one of my coworkers was out for the day, so a couple of us went in her office to eat lunch. I told a third coworker while we were sitting in the office that the night before I had had a fish dream. She laughed at me... that was on a Friday. On Monday when co-worker #1 came back to work, we all had lunch together. She said "well I have something to tell you ladies." I said "wait before you do..." I looked at co-worker #2 said "I told you so." and then told #1 to finish her sentence. Sure enough...

So back to the whole dream thing...the last 5% are the seeming random dreams. I say seemingly because I've learned that much like the other power it's randomness works in my favor. I've learned over time that on the rare occassion that I do remember a dream it's typically beacause I need to pay attention to all or part of it...

Which brings me to the last two nights...I have had two very odd dreams in relation to a couple of projects I'm working on. The one that is sitting with me is the one from last night...

I had a dream that I was updating my facebook status...see we're starting off weird already. LOL. I was sitting at my desk typing so it wasn't one of those I'm outside of my body watching myself dreams. On FB I wrote 4 status updates...I actually remember them word for word and they were in this order:

1. I have 3 pieces of news so amazing they each need their own status space...
2. my book not only got picked up by a major publisher, but it got so much buzz they booked me for Good Morning America
3. My group P.H.A.B got signed to a major record label and our first video premieres on MTV and BET this week
4. I just found out I got a $50,000 MacArthur Genius grant

Seriously?

Now the first one is completely plausible. The second...not impossible. The last one...I've never even considered applying for a genius grant so I don't know where the hell that came from...although again not impossible. I probably would kind of sideeye myself and say what was I smoking that night before...if not for the fact that the night before I had a very similar dream regarding the first and second things.

Hmmm... again this is where life is telling me to pay attention.

If any of the above do actually happen...I promise you I will come back to this and literally copy what I just said word for word. All dreams are possible I suppose...

Episode 40- Angels With Broken Halos

I've been called a lot of things... some good, some bad.

Most recently, I've been referred to (more than once) as an angel with a broken halo.

I try to be good. I really try. I say what I mean for the most part even if sometimes--it hurts. I try to be honest about my feelings even if it's hard for me---I'm getting better at that. I don't intend to mislead people, I'm approachable, I'm nice--most of the time. I like to think I'm funny. I say all that to ask the question...

Is there a reason why I always seem to find myself in some sort of crazy romantic entanglement?

I'm over here minding my own business. LMAO. Matter of fact I have a new Muse. I'll admit I've been... inspired, but... there are others waiting in the wings so to speak. Waiting for the Muse to leave. Waiting to be that thing that brings out my creativity. But I don't want to scatter my energies all willy nilly to the wind. I would rather stay focused. It all sounds rather poetic doesn't it? LOL

But in the simplest explanation, have you ever notice that the second you focus your feelings on someone, all of a sudden someone else will try to spike the kool-aid? Either an ex will show up or someone you didn't know had feelings for you will decided that NOW is the perfect time to throw it out there.

Hmm... a conundrum of life I suppose.

And how do I respond to these advances when a) I'm trying to listen to one voice among several looking to get my attention b) when the voices know they are talking over each other. In other words, what's the nicest way possible to reinterate to a few people that you know I am trying to work with only ONE Muse and right now that is where my attention is focused and while I appreciate your feelings I can't with you at the moment.

My relationship with my Muse at this point is only in its beginning stages and I would like to see what comes of it. So, to the others...allow me to listen please.

Readjusting my broken halo.

On my mind...

A not so subliminal message...