30 Day Challenge- Day 16 My First Kiss

Oh wow...my first first kiss can be summed up like this:

Awkward
Weird
Funny (in that middle school sort of humor-ish way)

My last first kiss can be summed up like this:

Intense
Uncensored
and still funny (in a grown up humorous sort of way)

...and to the person who gave me the latter, I want another one. lol

30 Day Challenge- Day 15 My Dreams

If you've ever checked out my other blog you already know I have lots of dreams.

I don't know if I want to call them "dreams," but more so visions of my future--I truly believe in speaking things into existence.

That said, my ultimate dream would be to travel the world and write. Travel write, poetry, blogs, finish my novel finally or maybe even start a new one. I would just like to take the whole world in and chronicle it.

Another one is this grand plan I've had for YEARS about buying out a building if I ever won the lottery. The dream is to open up my own venue, but incorporate some of the dreams of the people I know in it. For instance I have a friend who dreams about owning a restaurant so I envision building it out on the first floor. And my friend who dreams of being a professional photographer, I would give him studio space. That way everyone could live out the dreams they have.

Sigh! One day.

30 Day Challenge- Day 14-What I Wore Today

Uno mas for the catch up.

This is not a repeat. Today's topic is also "what I wore today"

Today we have a black 3/4 sleeve shirt and a pair of grey old navy slacks (which are a size smaller than I used to wear and yet they fit nicely...go me!!) along with some black pumps--hair our except for a black band (it's raining today so I rocked the curly look). All courtesy of a come up on some extra stuff from the move yesterday.

Sidenote: I have a performance tonight and the outfit of choice will be black rock and roll t-shirt, tight dark colored jeans and my new red birthday kicks that say "genius" on the back...rock on!

30 Day Challenge- Day 13 This Week

Hmm...

Let's see, this past week has been rather interesting.

On my normal everyday, I went to work, got a lot done. Went to school, got most done (sigh!) I knocked out a couple of shows--always fun. As I mentioned my birthday was Thursday--I went to work and school and then had a chill evening with a friend of mine who ended up cooking me dinner for my b-day. Friday was dinner at my favorite pho restaurant and a few new friends came through and threw me a little impromptu party. Saturday a day out pseudo shopping, followed by my girls dragging me out to the Rock and Roll Hotel for dinner and drinks and a night of would be debauchery (i.e. movies and popcorn in the house along with a few more drinks...that's as debaucherous as we get...lol). Sunday I helped a friend of mine move some stuff to her new apartment.

That was my week.

30 Day Challenge- Day 12 What's In My Bag

This should have been Saturday's entry. I skipped #11, since I have no siblings, (that I know of).

The essentials of my bag:

1 fire red Dell lap top (weapon of choice)
2 blank and partially blank spiral notebooks (I'm a writer afterall)
wallet
cell phone
keys
camera
misc. pens
a sharpie (never leave home with it)
a rhyming dictionary
a mini devotional book
lip gloss (my makeup bag is in the car)

and somehow my bag weighs 750 pounds...le grand sigh!

30 Day Challenge- Day 10-What I Wore Today

Since it's my birthday, the appropriate answer should be...my "birthday suit," but that comes later... KIDDING!!

I'll snap a picture later I swear, but the gear of the day is, black tee, skirt (I know right!! I NEVER rock skirts) and black boots, with a black letter bracelet.

30 Day Challenge- Day 9 My Beliefs

I'm going to assume, this refers to religion.

Ok, will this will be short and sweet. I believe in something higher than all of us--whatever you choose to call him/her. We had a rather strained relationship for awhile, but I think we're doing better...lol. I'm not particularly religious--spiritual most definitely. I wasn't raised hardcore in the church and when I did go it was always with others. I don't think church is a bad thing at all, my beef is usually with the people in it.

But even in my cynicism and disillusion, I can say this: God is definitely good all the time!

30 Day Challenge- Day 8, A Moment

I'll call this moment "the writing session"

Me.

Standing at the edge of the beach. It's pitch black and beautiful. We'd been sitting out there for about an hour before deciding to walk to water. Lighting is flashing way out over the ocean. Every time it does all you see is just the very edges and outlines of the clouds. But it's warm and breezy where I'm standing. The water just keeps running over my bare feet.

I've got my notebook in one hand.

and I wished I had a certain person's hand in the other.

30 Day Challenge- Day 7 My Best Friend

Yesterday's topic: My Best Friend

Oh this is easy enough. I've had the same BFF since round about 1979. Yes you read that correctly--1979.

People think it's strange and rare that we've been friends so long...I guess maybe it is. You don't see that kind of friendship anymore. I mean we've been through some SHYT. Stop speaking, fighting, getting matching tats, calling each other in the middle of the night just for alibis, road trips to Atlanta and Miami on a seconds notice, and amazing, amazing stuff. London, Paris, relationships, weddings, kids and stupid moments of "I can drink you under the table." I mean she knows me better than anyone else I can think of and will call me on my shit and I love her for it.

If I can find them...I will add some of our childhood pics to this entry.

30 Day Challenge- Day 6 My Day

Ok. I have to catch up on 3 new ones... whew! Since this was supposed to be Saturday's entry...here was my day Saturday:

I woke up early to help a friend of mine move some things into her apartment. We never got that far. Saturday got sidetracked when the two of us a) got into an impromptu writing session (that's what tends to happen with artists...lls) b) found out we were performing together the next day which turned it into a rehearsal session c) ran into a third friend who wanted to ride out to Maryland Book Exchange to trade in some used textbooks. All that capped off with a quick late lunch/early dinner with the ladies, another writing session and all plans that were suppose to happen gone out the window. lls.

I had a far more interesting day yesterday--an outdoor performance with 2 of my new favorite people, a conversation about books, life and poetry with an awesome 88 year old, dinner at 5 Guys, being trapped in DC by a terrorist/bomb scare, but I'm sticking to the rules and telling you about Saturday...lls

30 Day Challenge- Day 5 My Definition of Love

Again...ironic topic. I just had this discussion a few days ago.

Definition of love to me...depends.

But in terms of romantic love...

-It's being there at their best and their worst and in spite of and because of
-It's knowing when to speak up and/or shut up
-It's comfortable silence
-It's seeing the potential
-It's remembering the past tense
-It's never having to compromise or sacrifice yourself in order to know what it feels like
-It's beautiful intensity and ugly truth

30 Day Challenge- Day 4 What I Ate Today

Ironically I skipped this day because I ate something not to good the day before--made me feel none too good. LOL

But for the record when I did eat it was Pad Thai. Delicious

30 Day Challenge 3- My Parents

This should be pretty easy.

I have a rather unconventional family. I don't know my dad's side of the family. I was raised by my mom and I have (for lack of a better description) a "step dad." Their whole deal is kinda convoluted and I stopped asking years ago--lol. They're not married but they've been together more on than off for the better part of 25 years. I just refer to them as the odd couple.

The 'rents are both retired. They're not that old but they're drifting into the realm of only wanting to do "old people stuff" like go to senior day at the local casino (though neither is even old enough to get social security...so again, not that old...lol).

In their past lives (lol) my mom was Wonder Woman--still is. She's the ONE person I would NEVER want to get in a fight with even if she weren't my mom (ex cop, ex military, martial artist). My step dad was/is a electrical/electronics geek who can take apart and put computers back together. They both have their quirks. I have a odd but strangely normal relationship with them. I love them even when they get on my ever lasting nerves which is frequently...lol. But, I wouldn't trade them. Eh! That's about it.

30 Day Challenge- Day 2 My First Love

Ok wow,

This is kind of a heavy topic for Day 2. LOL.

I could spin this two ways--the first time I thought I was in love or the first time I KNEW I was in love. I'll go with the latter.

I'm not emotionless, but I can't just fall in love. For me it never worked like that, because when I love, I love hard or not at all. My first (real) love made me crazy. It was spontaneous, spur of the moment adrenaline rush all the time, like that split second before the roller coaster comes over the top of the first hill type *ish.

Honestly I fought it for a long time because somehow secretly I just knew (and perhaps this was self fulfilling prophesy) that no matter how much or how hard I loved it just wasn't going to be the forever thing.

but I wanted to just be in that split second before the hill.

I know I'm kind of sounding poetic--and maybe later I'll turn this into a poem, but anywho...

So going back to this whole roller coaster metaphor, at some point it had to go down...actually the whole relationship was like that. When it was good it was AWESOME and when it was bad, it was the 3rd circle of hell. There was never any balance in it, but I wanted to stay in it waiting for that next twist or flip.



And just like that it was done. I can't say just like that because we were together for a few years. It wasn't the fact that I was cheated on--I was one foot out the door when that happened. It wasn't the families, stress or the fights. I guess it just wasn't fun anymore. Ironically, the last thing I did before I left was say "I love you."

I meant it.

I'm over it. Looking back now, I see it as an experience, a chapter in my life that one day I'll write down. It'll make more sense then.

30 Day Challenge- Day 1 The Introduction

Ok, so I'm slacking on my blog(s), I needed some motivation and to boot I have to keep a blog as part of my class so I'll just call this practice.

Thanks to both @Kingsmomma and @Malika (both very funny, interesting and well written blogs) I've decided to take up the 30 day challenge. There is a list of topics starting with today's which is where apparently I am supposed to introduce myself...

So here it is.

This is me: I'm a writer, spoken word and hip hop artist, editor, grad student and a mom (not necessarily in that ORDER). I'm funny, sarcastic, honest (sometimes brutally),I have a quick wit. I am in fact a genius (or close to it) and a certified super nerd.I am also super eclectic--my taste in various things run all over the map (particularly with regards to music)

I enjoy the usual fun stuff but for the most part I'm pretty laid back and kinda go with the flow. I'm a Libra if you couldn't tell by that last statement. LOL. My birthday is in fact next week. (I know this sounds very Miss America Pageant-ish)My dislikes include liars, closed minded individuals and sweet potatoes (I will in fact gag on site).

I see myself as the person no one else sees coming, if that makes sense. I'm, I guess what they call the "X factor" like the one thing you didn't expect that just changed the game. That's always been me--the secret weapon if you will. I have an abundance of hidden talent.

What else?

Oh yeah, if you've been reading this blog you know that certain things and wild stories seem to happen to me and nobody else but me...lls...and hence I document it all here. What fun would life be otherwise?


Day 1 down.